“Dear Goddess Ezada, I’m curious and I mean this respectfully, why dominate when there can be equality? Doesn’t it get boring without a strong man like myself telling you “no”, once in a while?”
Since I started to date, in My teenage years, I have had relationships with different types of people. I have enough experience to know the dynamic that works best for Me and fulfills My desires. I only like partners who are very obedient and are happy to give Me total control over their lives, not only sexually, but especially in the everyday life. I have zero interest in a relationship based on equality or brats who are trying to make Me play by their rules.
But My desire to be in total control over My partner doesn’t mean I do not care, love and respect him. Only people with great qualities and integrity can become a part of My harem. And those who are worthy of being Mine are happy to offer Me total control over them. It is a mutually beneficial relationship.
“Good morning my pet, today is your birthday! La multi ani! How are you feeling?”
i was in heaven! Hearing the voice of my Goddess was the most beautiful present i could imagine! i had planned a day for worshipping my Goddess, watching her films and dreaming of Her! Since i submitted my life is dedicated completely to Her. Since more than one year. And so the only possible consequence was to spend my birthday with the one Goddess i cherish, obey and belong to! The Goddess that has taken complete control over my mind in the last year and guides me like a puppet on a string. The most beautiful Woman on Earth. The one i would like so much to be completely enslaved by. But i know that my time hasn´t come yet and that i will have to wait until my biggest wish will probably come true. But one day i hope she will make me her 24/7 slave and i will be completely under her control. My cock already is! As each of her boys knows one of her rules is: no cumming without permission. Since 14 days she hadn´t allowed me to cum. So i had spent each evening dreaming of Her and watching Her films, my cock encased in a chastity cage that i am allowed to wear constantly since half a year after begging constantly for almost half a year.
“Today will be a Goddess Day Mistress! Dedicated to You, watching Your films!”
“That´s nice! i have a Task for You! What time is it?”
“Two o´clock Goddess.”
“ you will make an Ezada´s marathon! Try to cum as many times as you are able to in the next 24 hours, always watching my films! Only ruined orgasms! Collect the cum in a glass! After you have finished the task you will drink it!”
Such a beautiful rush in my head! What a great day! Worshiping my Goddess and being allowed to cum! A short planning how to achieve the best results. In no time i was in bed then taking chastity of and watching her films! What a beautiful way to celebrate my birthday! i was so horny! And now i was allowed to cum for her until being completely drained! As she had told me during the training it is better to prolong the fun! So I teased myself for half an hour until i allowed myself to cum. And immediately had the second orgasm. The third one was already a bit difficult. It took me half an hour to reach it…at half past three i had reached my third orgasm. Cause they all were ruined, i was still very horny but already dry. Time for the first break turning the phone on and taking congratulations from friends, then some sports and back to bed. At half past seven i had reached two more orgasms. At nine the next and at half past eleven my seventh one. i tried again in vein until half past one watching her tormenting her slaves including myself on the videos she has already used me for. But there was no way cumming so i was almost mad from trying to reach the next climax. But i was milked bone dry for this day.
The next day i woke up brutally horny and tired about half past eight. The first thing i did was watching a video and cum. Number eight. Never in my life i was so horny! Then a short break for breakfast and one hour of trying to cum! It´s brutal being so horny after all the ruined orgasms but not being able to cum because the balls are so completely dried! Oil helps a lot to avoid injuring Goddess’s cock! After one and a half hour finally the ninth orgasm came and left me completely done while i watched her whipping my cock in a video she had made with me a few months ago! After a break i tried again but it wasn´t possible to reach a tenth orgasm until my time was over. i drank my cum, put on chastity and finished my Goddess worshipping day tired and relaxed and sinking into a deep sleep dreaming of my Goddess. She rules my life and all i want is to become her complete property with time. To be completely controlled by the most beautiful and fascinating woman in the world. The Star that guides me through life since more than one Year. i am born again in Sinn. Waiting what She has planned for me! Always hoping and begging to be put completely under her spell. i can´t think and dream of anything else anymore!
One hundred and thirty. i counted on the edge crying. The last stroke of her whip hit me like a burning spear. Goddess knows when to hit the points that are already sore from the whiplashes before. Like she always knows Your weak point. When she got to know me at the beginning of my online training after some days she had found it and drilled into it. After a few weeks You will be putty in her hands.
you have been a good boy. Now kiss my feet. After you have cleaned the mess that you left I will give you your papers and money and my boy will take you to the Airport. Look at all that sweat you left on the floor. i crawled to her twisting on the floor. my legs tied together with two leather belts and my arms fixed to the body the same way. i reached my Mistress kissed her feet and thanked her for the whiplashes. you´ve been a good boy. I´m very pleased with your service, now you can kiss my feet and say goodbye.
i always found female dominance fascinating but i haven’t been into it for years and didn´t know if i was really into it. Until i ran over the twitter account and website of Goddess Ezada Sinn and was slowly guided into my position by this stunning beautiful and intelligent Goddess who leaves absolutely no choice. And now i´m sitting at my computer wearing chastity like i do constantly since two weeks (no that isn´t true, i´m allowed to edge for today, which is a seldom honor for me) and a collar writing about the luckiest time of my life. The time i live for and that nurtures me while i can´t be with beautiful Goddess Ezada Sinn.
It all started with a message. you can visit me in Bucharest at the end of July. you will not touch yourself until you arrive. Bring your chastity device and a collar with you. For months i had begged to see my Goddess after joining her online training the year before. For me it was like a dream come true. The following three weeks flew away. No question that i followed her instructions. When i arrived at Bucharest i was fetched from the airport by one of her boys and taken to an apartment where i stayed for the following two days. When i arrived, she wasn´t there. Her boy told me to put my clothes of, to hand him my papers and my wallet and get into waiting position. i couldn´t count the time cause i was so nervous. Would i be able to meet her needs and to be a good boy for her? Alone in a city where i knew no one and without money. But i trusted my beautiful Goddess and never felt alone or anxious.
After a time which seemed endless to me she came in. Dressed in a black leather dress with thigh high boots and her now already visible baby bump. A pregnant Goddess! The dream i always had dreamt before knowing her and even more beautiful than i ever could have imagined. The most beautiful and fascinating woman on earth.
Present your balls. i went into position. Good boy. you have done well. Now put on your chastity device. Come here and kiss my shoes. Now worship my shoes. Collaring Position. A short click of the lock and the metal collar was fixed on my neck… what a beautiful feeling to know that i was under her control now. Good boy…. i was completely taken away by her beautiful scent and her stunning presence while Goddess ordered me to get up and put on some leather cuffs that she chained up to the wall. There i stood naked and helpless and the teasing began with some nipple clamps and a soft whip. In the following time i learned what it means to be tortured by a beautiful woman while i was moaning into my ball gag.
After a while she seemed to be satisfied. She set me free and told me to give her a foot massage before she showed me the old town of Bucharest. i learned about the history of this beautiful town and the beautiful buildings that stand there and have survived the communist regime. She is such a beautiful and knowing teacher. And every time i did something she didn´t like i was announced the whiplashes that would be punishment for this offence. And i had a lot to learn in the two days i spent at Bucharest. She kept me completely under her control and everyone who knows Goddess can imagine how she knew to hold me steadily aroused by her beauty and her wit…No relieve for me and all the fun for her. And every morning around four o´clock i was on my way to the water tap to cool down my hurting cock in the chastity device.
Then the weary day of my departure came. But first i had to be her guinea pig for a new fixation device i had to order for her and that she wanted to test as announced on twitter and to receive my punishment for the offences of the last days. She wore a black leather dress with thigh high leather boots and nude nylon pantyhose. i was completely blown away by her dominant appearance. First i received a back dog collar that i have to wear at home now as her pet. my hands were fixed with leather cuffs behind my back, my feet spread with a metal bar and my cock and balls fixed between two metal bars. To harden my predicament positon she put a leather belt around my legs and fixed it so well. Then she put on nipple clamps and slowly started to stroke my cock that grew stiff in no time after two days of steady teasing and three weeks without cumming. She played a little and then she suddenly finished went away and came back with a whip and a doxy wand in her hand. She grabbed the chain between my nipple clamps and pulled until the hurt was almost unbearable. You are my slave now! Yes Goddess! I own you! Yes Goddes! You are completely at my disposal from now on! Yes Goddess! I´m going to whip your cock, tease you until you have an orgasm and then I will whip you for your offences. you know post orgasmic torture is so much better. How many whiplashes? Sixty five.
The whipping of my cock started. She stood there smiling while the strokes slowly hit my cock. After some lashes I started crying. you are too loud. A gag looking like a red bone went into my mouth turning me silent. And then the slow whipping continued. My cock would bear blue streams for several days. After a while Goddess stopped and began teasing my cock with her hands and put the nipple clamps of and then on again in a different position before the whipping continued. There was no escape from the bondage. Finally she stopped and began teasing my cock again with doxy. i was so aroused but couldn´t cum after the long torture. Not a good idea! She put me out of my bondage. Now that You can´t cum I will double up Your whipping. Down on the floor. you will count the strokes. How many? One hundred and thirty. And now Goddesses fun and my suffering began….
i know i´m still at the beginning of my journey and there will be many mountains to climb. But i´m so happy to be Goddesses pet now.
Lately I received a lot of feedback from other Dominant ladies, so I decided to continue to share My experience about Female Led Relationships.
The human brain is set to be more comfortable with things that are familiar rather than novelty. Sometimes it can be a good habit (like feeling hungry at the same hour or waking up in the morning around the same time) or it can be bad habit (like the cigarette after dinner or spending too much time on social media). My desire is to help My slaves to be at the best of their abilities – in their submission towards Me and in their vanilla life. But today I am going to speak only about the first aspect – establishing rituals that will help them become better slaves/servants for Me.
I train My slaves differently and, even though there is some similitude, their training is different. But all of them must perform a kind of ritual that, through repetition, will take them deeper into submission. For example, when they serve Me in person the collaring ritual is always the same. As is removing the collar. This will prepare their minds for what is to come and will help them adjust easier.
For distance training there is a mantra that My boys must repeat before performing various tasks.
I find this easy to implement idea very useful and I would love to hear your opinion about it. Maybe you have some experiences that you would like to share?
A year ago my life changed irrevocably, i found religion. This religion is EzadaSinnism. Before this i never realised how empty my life was. i knew i was missing something, i was searching for something but i did not know what it was.
Now, as i look back, i see my life in 2 parts. The first part i shall refer to as Before Goddess, the second i shall call Anno Dea (the year of the Goddess).
In years 40-1 BG (before Goddess) my life seemed normal, i did all the normal things. i worked, i visited friends, i went on holiday. All seemed as it should be, i thought i was happy but i was never fulfilled. my life at this time seemed without purpose, without any plan. my degree, my work, everything in my life just happened, it was not planned. i lacked direction, my energy was without focus.
In 0AD (Anno Dea) all this changed, finding my new religion has had a profound effect. Under Goddess’ supreme guidance i have found a focus, Goddess’ pleasure. All my energies used with one purpose in mind. For those of us with a submissive nature pleasing another brings more pleasure than pleasing oneself, there can be no greater fulfilment. To sacrifice and test oneself for one’s Owner brings the ultimate satisfaction. The smile on Goddess’ face at my suffering brings the ultimate joy.
Under Goddess’ supreme guidance my life has improved in several ways. Firstly i have begun to realise my deepest fantasies, some i am not sure i realised i had. The reality is very different from the fantasy, but more fulfilling for it. In fantasy it is often all about the bondage, the whipping, the strap-on etc. The reality is about servitude, sometimes this will be a whipping, at other times it will be about domestic chores. It doesn’t matter what the activity is, if it is in service to Goddess Ezada it will be done and my feeling of fulfilment is much greater than anything i could do for myself. Cleaning the dungeon for Goddess can bring the same fulfilment as taking a whipping for Goddess’ pleasure. To be useful to Goddess Ezada is to know joy.
Through Goddess Ezada i have been able to visit new places, meet new people and form connections in this new world of Female Supremacy. Serving at the Fem Dom Retreat was an amazing honour and i met some truly wonderful people. True, there were some very scary and nervous times. i was exposed and humiliated in front of everyone, but making Goddess happy filled me with the biggest sense of pride i could ever imagine.
Under Goddess’ orders i have begun to look after myself better. my eating habbits have improved, i eat more salad, more fruit and eat less junk food. i am now leaner than ever before, i’ve never been overweight but there was room for improvement. Goddess demands perfection and this is what i must work towards, if i ever achieve it is another question.
Finally, thanks to Goddess’ training i am able to accept who i am. The submissive part of me is nothing to be ashamed of, but something to be proud of. All of us, great or small, have a part to play in life. One cannot be happy until one knows one’s part. Goddess has shown me the way, i know my part, to serve my wonderful Owner. Only through this service can i find true fulfilment.
i know there will be more trials and tribulations in the future, but i couldn’t imagine my life any other way.
Life in 2 parts
Goddess Ezada Sinn tells Her slaves when She wants us to beg.
“Beg Me to hurt you.”
“Beg Me to whip you again.”
As Goddess Ezada’s slave i have begged on my own accord. “Goddess may i please, please, please cum?” Such a foolish slave i am.
Nowadays the begging that’s rolling around inside feels like a breast of different bred, 21 months of Goddess Ezada molding me. She’s exploited my weaknesses, firmly locked me up, teased my frailty, and denied me any personal orgasmic thrills. Goddess has left me wanting and weak, frustrated and sexual high stung.
Goddess Ezada pushes me to the brink of wicked wanting
So hard to breathe.
Impossible to focus
Embarrassed to admit the depth of my defeat.
Her control firmly cast over sit’s life.
The pit of my guts running wild
i beg to Worship Her.
i beg to Hear Her voice.
i beg to Heel at Her left thigh.
i beg to Obey Her every command.
i beg to Submit totally to Her will.
When begging turns into a constant craving,
One that never ends.
Constant cravings, Her claws have sunk deeply in.
you beg so loudly
The lust you pine for
Just Her puppet by the end
you beg the Goddess Ezada Sinn
For some comfort
Yet Her will, it never bends.
Forget the act off cumming slave, it’s all but passed and dead.
you’ve come to the point of begging now
you’re fate is drained and bled.
When a slave finally arrives at the point of constant craving and willingness to beg, with everyday ripping up your insides, only the Goddess Ezada Sinn resting in your head. Have you fallen already or are you standing on a ledge, can you commit to what this actually means slave?
Are you willing to live in a place of total surrender to Her and Her will. To give Goddess Ezada, all the control She wants and deserves?
Is this constant begging a new found sign?
Have you’ve jumped already or just need to surrender to the next giant step inline?
For Goddess Ezada Sinn’s sit there is only one choice
i’m either already falling or i’m taking that step off the ledge right now.
Control, it lies at the core of human life and society. For as long as humans have existed it has been the case. Some are in control, others are controlled. Each has a place in society. Goddess Ezada Sinn is definitely in control, She loves control. Goddess enjoys having control of every facet of Her slaves lives. What they eat, when they eat, how they eat, how they use the toilet. All these things and more will be controlled by their Goddess. Her beauty and charm make it effortless for Her to take over.
It was early in my training when Goddess began to take control, and it was as easy for Her as breathing. i had just started Goddess’ advanced training when Goddess told me i was no longer allowed to pee standing up. This is just the beginning of Goddess taking control of the most intimate and natural activities. At home or work having to sit down to pee does not present a problem, but imagine when one goes to a football match. All the cubicles are full (usually of people smoking), it is tempting to cheat, but Goddess’ command is firm in one’s mind. So, wait one must and venture into the smoke filled cubicle to sit down to pee as Goddess wishes.
Orgasm control……..this is one of Goddess’ most favourite things. Goddess will have as many orgasms as She wishes, the slave only when and how She wishes. One never knows how or when one will be permitted to orgasm. One thing is for certain, it will be nothing like before Goddess took control. Goddess likes to have Her slaves locked in chastity devices, but whether locked or not, the slave is not free to orgasm at will. If not in chastity one must exercise mental chastity. In some ways mental chastity can be harder than being locked, having the ability to touch oneself but not having permission can be torture. Goddess, of course, knows this and uses this to increase Her control over Her slaves.
Goddess will continue to find new ways to demonstrate Her control. you may be going about your day as normal when a message from Goddess appears. “Edge yourself for me”. This is sweet torture, finally having permission to touch oneself but knowing that no pleasure will come of it. To bring oneself to the edge of orgasm time and time again is a most frustrating experience. The desire to continue and cum is strong, but again, Goddess command is firm in one’s mind “do not cum”.
When one is permitted to orgasm, it will be how and when Goddess decides. In a way which will amuse Goddess. It may be humiliating or it may be painful. A message may come through “eat it”, and you will dutifully go ahead and carry out the humiliating task. Alternatively, you may find tabasco sauce being used in ways you never thought it would. Let me tell you, tabasco sauce hurts. It doesn’t matter how painful or humiliating, you will do it because Goddess wishes it.
Her slave’s diet will also be controlled by Goddess. A message from Goddess informed me i am now on a special diet. i am not fat, but Goddess wants perfection. Obeying Goddess’ command, i have no more sweets and more salads. Yes, Goddess is over 500 miles away, but cheating has never entered my mind. Goddess holds such control that doing anything but follow Her orders is not even considered.
It is not just through Her explicit commands which Goddess takes control, there is a level of implicit control. Serving Goddess changes one’s perspective, your own wants and needs seem unimportant. Your vanilla life becomes nothing more than a means to an end, the end being pleasing Goddess Ezada Sinn. The first thought in the morning and last thought at night will be of Goddess.
i wake up in the morning and the first thing i do is apply nipple clamps, i welcome the pain knowing that it is what Goddess wishes. In work, I carry on my job as normal, but always wondering if there is anything i can do to make Goddess smile. i create implements with which Goddess will be able inflict pain. It is a strange concept to make something knowing it will be used to bring one pain, but i do this to please Goddess. i send humiliating pictures and videos hoping they will amuse Goddess, dignity not important alongside Her beautiful smile.
So, here i am, a once free male who longer has any control. i belong to Goddess Ezada Sinn and i couldn’t be happier.
Blog entry written by My collared slave sit. I love My slave sit very much.
During my stay in the fabulous Residenz Avalon, I had the chance to experience the unique sensation of being in captivity under the reign of Goddess EZADA Sinn.
I slept in a small cell smallest than 2m², finally I was trying to sleep.
I do not want to miss the arrival of my Mistress. Thus, each footstep on the floor (the cells are in a basement without any natural light), I threw myself from the small mattress to put me on Waiting position in case of my Mistress would open the door of the basement. Moreover She could appear at any time, even in the middle of the night, I admit I had trouble falling asleep. I had knelt more than ten times so that not missing the majestic entrance of my Goddess.
By the morning, I think, without any influence from the outside world, sound, brightness, … I cannot accurately estimate at what time I could sleep.
Suddenly I was awakened by the firm, fast and clocked step of Mistress Ezada Sinn. The sound of her high heels on gross cellar floor sounded like an alarm melody that you cannot avoid. I prostrated myself in a flash, yet despite heavy eyes, hands outside of the cell.
She opened the door, slid Her favorite riding crop on each rod cells while screaming:
“wake up slave !”
My body froze from head to toe
She stopped at my cell and put Her soles with conviction on my palms. I was impressed by Her voice, her spurs that adorned Her Boots. I was afraid, I could not raise my head, I had no right. My place is much lower than Her calves, Her ankles, I should be in a pit (such as a cell of the residence where you are completely buried in the ground) to be in my place in comparison to the Greatness of my Highness.
She ordered me:
“Kiss my boots, slave!”
After dropping kisses with the greatest devotion and indescribable relief to see the Mistress of my life, She exclaimed:
“slave, look at Me!”
I looked up with biggest difficulty in the world. Her Over the knee Boots curve Her calves, Her knees and the lower part of Her thighs to perfection. I discovered successively She wore her Ralph Lauren’s leather pants, a black belt, pure white blouse, small leather driving gloves. When I arrived up to Her face, I was blinded as a child who is dazzled by the light of the day.
Was I dazzled by Her beauty, Her coldness, Her greatness, Her aura?
Was I scared to meet Her determined eyes, her brilliant and sadistic glance?
Was I dreaming?
Or simply I was amazed by the magnificence of my Mistress after being separated from Her for an indefinite period but far too long for me?
I finally widened my eyes. She was immaculate as usual, a spicy red lips, a brilliant face powder, Eyes to die, Her long shiny black hair falling down to Her unique kidneys like the mane of the strongest lioness. Her head wearing a military hat from the highest Officer Grade giving Her an extra dose of Governess of the Residenz, an untouchable Goddess. Simply, I met a Goddess, a true, by Her elegance, grace, charisma. She had put me a lot in my eyes *, as we say in France. (* Elle m’en a mis plein les yeux)
She asked me if I spent a good night with a sadistic smile so that to show me that She loves to feel me locked up here with no comfort when she could enjoy the night in her large bed with Her slave-husband looking at me through the camera constantly filming the cell.
Then after opening the padlock locking the door of my cell, She ordered me:
I followed Her as best as I could, because She walked with a quick step and basements of Avalon are not welcoming to my knees, like the metal staircase leading to the private apartments of Madame.
She opened a door on the 1stfloor and I knew instantly what she expected of me.
A large examination room with a shower and a transparent toilet bowl in the middle of the room. The big day was so happened. I was going to have the honor of receiving the Mistress’s breakfast. The one She was prepared the day before, She has fashioned for the whole night.
I was really excited to have this opportunity.
But would I measure up?
Would I be able to enjoy everything, appreciate this ultimate reward, the divine unction, this sacred meal?
She pointed me with a snap my position, under the transparent bowl by opening a small hole, then closed it around my neck.
That’s it, I was now a human toilet for my Mistress.
As usual, to live the moment even more intensely, She began to tickle my mind by Her divine words:
“you will be my full toilet today, you Will receive My breakfast this morning, you will eat it all and you will love it. My ass is the source of your food, you belong to Me, I can use you in any way I want, like My private toilet.”
I began to feel an erection increasingly strong, just listen to Her words and imagining the moments that will follow.
“you will become an extension of My anus, be both sub-shit and recycle. you will continue the sublime and mysterious work of transformation of the insider matters in My body, to keep the benefit that was not good for Me but still profitable to an animal like you. purcelus (my nickname means Pig in Romanian language), pigs are sometimes fed excrement recycled, they bear very well and that is good for them should be good for a purcelus “
Then She laughed with a no dissimulate pleasure so that to humiliate me psychologically before starting to degraded myself physically.
My heart kept beating louder and suddenly She unbuttoned Her expensive leather pants before sitting down on the toilet.
I think this is probably the most shuddering moment, the most intense and enjoying thrill in my life.
I said in my head :
“now, you do not-have the choice, you-have to do it for Your Goddess, for our love”.
Then slowly, sensually, I felt Her fruity champagne that flowed more abundantly in my mouth. Before seeing Her caviar releasing it from Her divine source, from Her Majestic den.
I did my best to receive all of Her breakfast in my mouth until i am overflowed by her Brown shower.
I savored every grain of caviar without difficulty with a certain gusto, despite a somewhat consistent texture and an aroma releasing the stronger flavors than the last one.
She left the room and ordered me to swallow everything, clean everything, like a real flush mechanism.
Even alone, I hastened me to eat it all. I do not know how I could eat the whole before the return of my Mistress. Maybe because I had not eaten for almost 24 hours and only a few remains of a meal from my goddess 48 hours ago.
She came into the room, told me to rinse my mouth and face. I could not stop thanking Her for such a unique reward :
” thank You Goddess, thank You my Empress, Te iubesc Stapana mea”
I was on a cloud, as satiated after a memorable breakfast. a piece of my mistress was in me, I was a little more closer myself of Her, of Her Intimacy. From now on, nothing will be as before, I will serve Her as a Human-toilet whenever She wants, wherever She wants, 24H / 7D.
Will I be able to accept this honor daily whatever the color, smell, and consistency of Her Breakfast, or another diner.
She put me a humbler and ordered me to go back waiting Her in my cell. I executed immediately, on all fours. Arrived in my cell, I wondered if I had not dreamed those wonderful moments, this delicious morning at her feet, under the awesome buttocks of my Goddess.
I went back down to paradise, just as I went back down to the basement of the residence Avalon.
My last doubts to know if I dreamed or I lived an unforgettable morning disappeared when my Mistress arrived an hour later, a nasty single tail in Her right-hand ….
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